i am writing this blog wif tears and sorrow now

i really don hv much mood to smile..

hahaz.......it has been such a long time didn't cry until so badly..

i couldn't control it..
simply..

too sad..
i can't accept this reality..

where's the cheerful and delightful soki?
i am searching it now..

i guess the cheerful soki has been put into slp deep deep inside alrdy...