today was my working day..

which means was the day tat ii would face many ppl

and ii am talking own voice..

at 1st, the few customers..

ii realli cannot speak very well..

made mi sho embarassed..

speak realli soft, i cannot even hear myself and ii felt tat something was trapped in my throat and try to pull back the sound tat ii produced previously on

ii was realli demolerised..

hardly talk to anyone else..

my tears dimmed off and dripped onto my clothes,
the feeling was realli miserable ..

ii realli unable to stand it anymore..

and ii decided to sms mrs xia and ask her for permission

tat whether could ii corh her after ii knocked off?

she didn't replied.

ii guess she was bz wif her works..

nvm mrs xia ii don mind

thx for giving mi supports for these few days and also these few yrs..

and during afternoon..

my confidence comes back abit..

ii can talk louder but still not used to it yet..

hope tat next week ii could speak to everyone else like wad ii spoke to my brother and maid..

realli hope

ii don wan to hide my secret anymore

sounds like girls

then sound like girl lorhhs

ii don wanna to care it anymore..

ii jus wanna to make myself upright and face the obstacles tat ii am hving

so tat in the future ii would be braver

and also

this maybe was a test of punishment from the god..

if ii don even pass this? how am ii suppose to overcome the next obstacles tat ii would be facing in the future?

hope tat everyone would gv mi their supports.

one support would make a different!

signned off~