today was the graduatin's day for all the sec4 and sec5 ..

wa laos this iish not the last day for my sch also marrhs

yy they have to push it until now for graduation neh?

erm don say these liao larrhs


btw and then hor during the ceremony was realli BORED

aisha sat beside mi and we chatted quite alot..

erm

the speech from the teachers some were realli quite touching ..

ii can feel how deep bottom of their heart feels too..

seeing the own students leaving the sch already

the feeling of cosh wont be gd..

and then during 5n1's turn..

wow !

mrs francis realli putted in efforts to put up the last video for the own students lorhhs

realli creative and also touching..

our class?

tat hup onli say abt education education education..zzzz

always same thing..

WHY cant ui JUST say OTHEr things rather than THIS?!

no comment for ui lorhhs

nvm larrhs

ii am not gonna to see ui anyway..

before the ceremony ended

all the teachers lined up in twos and we walked in between them like guests..

hahas the feeling was gd..

however ii saw some teachers cried..

ms huda,ms zalifah and mrs xia..

don worry ii would visit ui all even thought ii am no longer belong to this sch anymore

ii didn't expect ms jasmine would wish mi gd luck !

sorries cosh ii tot ui hv already forgot mi sho ii didn't say anything to ui sorries arrhs~

finally ii hv released wad ii stressed up for the past 5 yrs..

actually when ii was sec 1 ii saw many guys, they tended to change their voice and mine still not break yet..

sho ii make up my own voice.. and try several times to make it hears deep..


ii ever thought tat ii would use the made voice forever

ii talked to frenz teachers families and even my best frenz using tat fake voice..

while at home, ii talked to my bro and maid using my own confortable voice..

when someone comes in ii hv to channel my voice back to the made ones..

haizh

this kind of life realli made mi feel like dying..

even in oral ..

ii used the made voice as well

but during N lv and O lv oral ii used my own confortable voice..

ii know tat during the first few months of using the fake voice, alvin insulted mi before saying tat ii am making the own voice..

during tat time ii was afraid tat ii would be a laughters for the whole class...

and even whole places wif ppl tat know mi..

ii hate to be laughed by ppl..

ii even get beaten by my father before becosh of the soft voice..

it;s a made up voice.. ii can't make it to be loud..

if not ii would feel throat pain..

ii wanna to be a singer in the future.. and wad if my throat spoiled?


tat would be a very pity lerrhs..

5 yrs of tortures..

ii guess it;s time for mi to be myself..

ii cannot cont to use the made up voice anymore..

ii felt realli miserable..

sometimes ii even felt tat

should ii end my life? becosh ii hv been laughed by many ppl..

auntie,cousins, frenz...

wad could ii do? ii realli cant do anything

now ii am using back my own voice..

it sounds loud and not very clear becosh of ii nd time to adapt ba..

hope tat my frenz, father , mother and even teachers would accept...

ii realli can't stand it anymore..

ii am sorries if ui don like my voice..

ui may jus ignore mi or jus even leave mi alone or even disown mi as a frenz ..

ii don mind actually..

ii ever thought tat ii should live for ppl ( using made voice)

or living for myself( own voice)

ii am lucky and fortunate tat ii had a wonderful maid and brother..

tats yy ii loved them alot..

they understand and didn't mock mi

thought ii usually don show my loves to them..

but deep in my heart ii realli love my maid and my brother..

signned off..

sorries tears coming down..

saddness butterfly..